good girl faith (day nine)

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “In Good Faith.”

In Good Faith

Describe a memory or encounter in which you considered your faith, religion, spirituality — or lack of — for the first time.

you’d think that the people in christian schools would be more… christian. from firsthand experience, i must say i disagree.

but first we have to decide what “christian” means. to me, to be christian, you have to be a good person. and obviously, you have to go to church because not all good people are religious. i am surrounded by people who go to fellowship and worship, but treat people like they’re above everyone else. in my mind, you can wear the clothing you want and curse, but to being a rude hypocritical person and going to mass do not cancel out to equal a christian. and then i suppose, you have to believe.

i think about my religion (or lack thereof) constantly. when i censor my words when i go to drills, during christmas service at school, as my mom is praying aloud at dinner, when my mom scolds my sister for cursing, but mostly when my sister proclaims there is no god and my mom becomes upset. i think there is a god who’s watching my every move, but whether you think there is a god, yahweh, allah or anything else is not the issue. the issue is raining on someone’s parade and trying to change their thoughts on religion. whether this is a believer relentlessly trying to convert a nonbeliever or a skeptic arguing about the nonexistence of god, i see it as going into someone’s house, their sanctuary, and telling them that they’re running it incorrectly.

right now i’m on the fence, not really going to worship or fellowship but at the same time not being a rulebreaker. i suppose i’m just trying to be a good girl and a good person.


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